my first day of work was friday. it was fun. kinda hectic, it was a weird day to start, but all in all, a good experience. i had my first canoe ride. we had to go out to the island to kick some people off. so Captain Jack, Ducky and i canoed out there. it was fun. i ate cotton candy. met a lot of new people. became an official girl scout (for insurance reasons) and found out that even the guys who work there had to become girl scouts. also, i'll be making $1300 for 4 weeks of work. not too shabby. i need the gas money. then, got home. took a shower, got ready to go watch a movie, and ended home by myself. 2nd time that i've been all ready to go (both instances had to do with movies) and was ditched. kinda felt stupid afterward for taking the time to pick out an outfit. and getting ready, then just sitting there, waiting, for nothing. i wish i could just not care at all. then maybe, just maybe, i wouldnt get my hopes up, everytime, to be let down. i wish i still had somebody to share my day with. somebody who wants to be with me, and wants to know how everything went. someone who would support me. seems like i'm on my own though. well, my saturday is pretty busy, what with sitting on the couch, and changing the channels, so i should go.

p.s. it seems, more and more, that some people were just meant to be alone. i'm starting to think that i'm one of those people.